ouh dat MyssPG!
she called >> nazilr0n. (ouh-figure-dat-out!)
h0r0sc0pic >> pisces lady.
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age groupz >> in her early 20's
her nickzz >> ezan, LizyPg™, MyssGothyc, ScaryEmy.
fav genrez >> punkRawkEmoGoth.
her status >> complicated.
email addy >> devilstawk@hotmail.com
pastymezz >> st0nyn and gets paran0id.
inside her >> em0GothHead,swit,l0vyn,irritatyn & ...
i wanna be de'Gal, wh0 0lwez smyle...
& brightened up y0ur day...
th0' she c0uldn't brightened up her 0wn.
n0 matter h0w hard 0r t0ugh life is...
n0 matter h0w hurtf0ol n sad i am...
i will 0lwez smyle...
& smile lyk i mean it. :]
ouh Pathetic,
MyssLizyPg
Y Y Y
ouh, those lil faith.
i wanna change. i wanna get some life. i wanna lead a better life.
turning into 'me'. the real 'me'. the 'me' inside me, you noe. -.-"
i dun wanna be like those typical girls. ended up stuck themselves at home, looking after small monsters and gets paranoid everydae/everynight.
Gets misery when part of her life comes back home late at night and having those thoughts of 'ouh-he-must-have-been-met-up-some-women', 'ouh-yeah-another-party-in-the-clubs' or 'it's-just-a-drink-with-my-old-friends' or worse still 'im-busy-at-work-don't-you-ever-understand'.
& this is where disputes, arguements, conflicts started to erupt.
seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
I DON'T WANNA END UP MY LIFE LIKE THIS.
i don't know how long i would be able to stand with part of my life.
and i don't even know if he's the one. everyone's been pretty mad at me.
i know i shouldn't do this and that and stuffs...hmmmmmmmm.
i just... i just don't know the reason why. why i'm doing all this. for him.
sometimes i don't know whether some pple do really notice my kindness and appreciates of what i've done all this while.
is it wronged to be nice?
let's talk bout trust.
how many percent do i trust at part of my life? ans: 70%.
i don't trust him fully coz men are all typically the same. same dick think alike. am i right to say that? how beautyful his wife could be, when pretty n flawless lady passby, they just can't resist to have a quick glance from top to the bottom.
main typical reason why i bought him that free lappy is because i wanted him to learn something [he's stupid btw, ouhkae shhh]. learn bout the latest gadgets and softwares. not those design or technical tools. i mean those basic knowlegde of typical softwares like microsoft words and etc...
but did he?
pathetically, he only interested in porns. damnz.
and obviously cyberlife.
i've learnt lotsa stuff bout cyber. and i had enuff.
no doubt, chattyn and get-to-know is just part of cyber life.
it's just the individuals themselves needs to know the limits.
the interaction limits in the cyber world.
alright i'm making myself sound kind of jealousy here.
come on, tell me which gf's doesn't gets jealous when her own bf get to know or chat with other girls? fine, ouhkae i've got no points or no evidence to proof he's playing behind back right? i've been through. you know, 'cyber'. it's cyber btw. yeah, it's just cyber afterall. fine, shut up then.
what more men needs in a women?
looks? attitudes? status? intelligence? wealth? or a bony?
i don't smoke. i don't drink. i don't club. ouhkae fine, i used to be a smoker. but it was many years ago. im fugly and im fat. yeah just what's wrong with that? fat human have feelings and mindset too. they're not another some laughing stock. im fat and whats the problem with that? well educated, earns a living and im happy.
am i? ...............
sometimes i think, he's the one whom really NEEDS me.
and i don't NEED him at all.
erase my sadness, swallowed my pain and bottled up my feelings.
sometimes i felt i've given up.
but i do still have those lil faith.
all i wanted to do is to change someone's life.
but why am i the one get hurts in the end?
good question. why should i bother when he doesn't care at all?
life is not like a fairytale.
there's no such thing as a fairy godmother.
there's no prince charming coming to save you.
and i'm not a princess.
everything is just a mess.[next pay cheque goes to]
- new haircut.
- new lappy (ouh thanks to GST package).
...deep inside, itz bleedin...
5:15 AM
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