im not a princess.
I HAD A TERRIBLE DAY[S]
[ 27feb'09 ]
went for the Customer Service Management Course @Serangoon North CC (sumtyn lyk dat) which is secluded by the pple (lyk me) coordinate by the Aljunied Town Council (AJTC), Mr Clarence Tan (Ex-Contact Ctr Mgr of CPG FM). Took cab with Kak Lin, went for breakfirst as we're the early birds. It was held in a class. Group discussions n shares. Hmmmmmm. He's nice n great person. Nice talk by the way. How i wish the existing mgr have some character lyk him. DAMNZ.
took cab headed to yishun ctrl n we shop around (hehe, duit GST da masok beb). and guess what? I HAD A NEW HAIRCUT luh seh. :]
: will upload in the upcoming posts. :
[ 28feb'09 to 3mar'09]
i had a freakyn phugkynly BAD(100x) days.
4 straight whole days im busy lyk phugkyn hell doin tradesmen.
sat: STM.
sun: ETM.
Mon: STM.
Tue: ETM.
non-stop calls. i pause my line. concentratyn on my caseS. still, have to endure with nasty caller when i return calls to check and confirm on the situation. DAMNZ. i've been scolded for no reason, or worst still, some department didn't make a follow up, and i got the impact. THIS IS SO UNFAIR!
i hate my job. i hate my site line. this is customer service, i have to endure with it.
: Life Hurts. I Learn The Hard Way. :
[ 4mar'09 ]
we met. and it was 5hrs waits coz he's overslept. i was pretty mad n pissed off. i kept msg-in n call-in hym non-stop. coz i noe he's sleepyn. i took a good Belgian Chocolate Ice Blended n hangout @Sunplaza CoffeeBean (to cool me down) while reading SimplyHer. After the heavy downpour with thunderstorms, i had a GOOD peaceful of mynd on my own (wana chyll again by myself when im free again). i was thynkyn if still he didn't return my callz or msgz, i would juz hangout with one of my gf instead. he answered my call with his sexy-juz-wake-up voice (abeh suke, lolx). n decided to juz continue waityn. hmmmmm.
we eventually met after the whole 12 days of being away n argue via sms. i was pissed off.
1. he took his own sweet tyme.
2. he didn't say anytyn bout my newhaircut.
3. he whinyn bout his shitty lifes past few days.
4. he didn't questioned how have i been doin.
i kept silence coz i dun wana make things worst. that's it.
in my mynd, he just dun bother or care bout me anymore.
he only thynks bout hymself.
when i thynk back tyme, i told to some of my buddy bout hym, and they asked me to leave hym for my own good (you deserve the better ones out there gal). i noe, i understand why they say so. haiz. i felt guilty and sorry if i were to dump and leave hym. coz i gave hym hope, helpyn hands, loves & sincerity. it makes hym back alive again. i just wanted to change his life and care for me. he teaches me what is love, what is like to fall in love and how to make love. i don't wana leave hym coz i truly love hym. i duno what im goin to do without hym. i dun even have any close frens. or even bestfrens. pathetic right? i noe. all along, i just want someone to love and care for me. is it wrong?
we had a great arguements after we went to vivo. he sended me home. we try to talk things out and unexpected things happen. there's no shoutyn luh. duhhh. i questionyn hym around and he answered me. why u dun reply my msgs, retun my calls. and the only lame reason i get from hym was hp batt flatt and he's sleepyn. it was just talks and i got out of my mynd out of sudden (perhaps im wae too pissed off, hungry and tired) and all i wanted to do is to just cry (to flow out everytyn). i felt much better after i let it flow out. i just dun dare to cry infront of hym, i grab my bag and headed home. he just walk off.
i called hym, he rejected my calls. FYNE. i texted hym. he starts emo-in bout his life background. haiz. i noe, i shouldn't touch on sensitive stuffs to hym. damnz. now i regret whatever i msg hym all this while. he's neither from the very high standard income pple, nor my family's stage kind of income. haiz. if i do forgive hym n give hym chances, why can't he? this is so unfair. and i start lecturyn in my texts. i juz hope that he could thynk and won't react out of hys limits (lyk me).
im stewpid in relationship. i dun wana end this relationship. i dun wana feel heartbroken. i dun wana noe what it is to be heartbroken.
: im imperfect. im tired of waityn. he's the 1st and probably the last. :
ouh mirror mirror on the wall...
damnz im fugly out of all...
im not a princess for your to fall...
& life is not a fairytale, happily never afterall.
...deep inside, itz bleedin...
12:00 PM
