ouh dat MyssPG!
she called >> nazilr0n. (ouh-figure-dat-out!)
h0r0sc0pic >> pisces lady.
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age groupz >> in her early 20's
her nickzz >> ezan, LizyPg™, MyssGothyc, ScaryEmy.
fav genrez >> punkRawkEmoGoth.
her status >> complicated.
email addy >> devilstawk@hotmail.com
pastymezz >> st0nyn and gets paran0id.
inside her >> em0GothHead,swit,l0vyn,irritatyn & ...
i wanna be de'Gal, wh0 0lwez smyle...
& brightened up y0ur day...
th0' she c0uldn't brightened up her 0wn.
n0 matter h0w hard 0r t0ugh life is...
n0 matter h0w hurtf0ol n sad i am...
i will 0lwez smyle...
& smile lyk i mean it. :]
ouh Pathetic,
MyssLizyPg
Y Y Y
leave me alone.
i've been thinking lately. why should i make my life miserable, with all the heart aches, cryings and misery... when happiness and sadness is chosen by you yourself instead? you are the one to choose how you wanted your life to be and how you want to lead your life. it's just the fact that, don't let the people around you or your surroundings controlled your life. haiz. how i wish i could maintain the thoughts of it, to just let it be this way. when no one could really make you happy, your ownself could try to.
i've been busy working. shift work. i wish i could make myself busy all these days at work, to forget everything... i mean... those thoughts i had all this while that makes me paranoid and sad... and stuffs. i'm sooo happy attending nasty resident. kind of... challenging? perhaps? ... hmmmmm. sometimes i just feel hopeless and pathetic handling nasty callers. but at least i tried.
i don't know whether i do still love hym or ... the feeling has fade away. i just... i don't know. sometimes i just feel like wanna break up with him. i would rather live alone. tak mati pon kalao takde mataer. i always asking myself. why am i always be the one to think of hym, think bout this relationship, the one who always decide how things are and how it supposed to be. but when i've suggest or decides on something, he would always throw sarcastic remarks or comments on it. in a relationship, i thought we should discuss and decide together. but he always pointed me out to lead the way instead and when things get cock up, pointed finger on me? and i'm the one to be blame? this is so unfair! he always thinks about himself. i thought... he's the guy. i mean... he's a man and should be the one who ... haiz. it's so hard and complicated. i don't know what to do. i could feel that he's changed.
i've deleted his number. i just wanna forget bout him in my life right now, for the time being i mean. i just wana be alone. i need to think. what's good for me. hmmmmmm.
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hidup ini, jangan terlalu mengharapkan
kelak nanti, kecewa sendiri.
kita sedih ke, kita marah ke,
orang lain takkan tahu.: thynk of happy thoughts and it could make you smyle. :
...deep inside, itz bleedin...
4:45 AM
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