ouh dat MyssPG!
she called >> nazilr0n. (ouh-figure-dat-out!)
h0r0sc0pic >> pisces lady.
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age groupz >> in her early 20's
her nickzz >> ezan, LizyPg™, MyssGothyc, ScaryEmy.
fav genrez >> punkRawkEmoGoth.
her status >> complicated.
email addy >> devilstawk@hotmail.com
pastymezz >> st0nyn and gets paran0id.
inside her >> em0GothHead,swit,l0vyn,irritatyn & ...
i wanna be de'Gal, wh0 0lwez smyle...
& brightened up y0ur day...
th0' she c0uldn't brightened up her 0wn.
n0 matter h0w hard 0r t0ugh life is...
n0 matter h0w hurtf0ol n sad i am...
i will 0lwez smyle...
& smile lyk i mean it. :]
ouh Pathetic,
MyssLizyPg
Y Y Y
lovehurtz.
[ 8march'09 ]
i sleep the whole freaking dae.
i felt like i wana sleep and never wake up.
heeeee. :]
[ 9march'09 ]
we went out tonight. and i waited again. sumtymes i felt sick of waiting. i was being WILD yet CONFUSED. im having a mix feelyn actually. lost + confused + heartbroken + wasted + wild + love + hate + missing + paranoid + freak!. ouh, datz so typical of me. hmmmmm. and guess what? i tried out sumtyn i never done in my whole entire freakyn life before! ouh my god im sucha FREAK! i just hope he LOVES me more. haiz.
love me ~ love me ~
sae that you love me ~
fool me ~ fool me ~
go on and fool me ~
love me ~ love me ~
pretend that you love me ~
leave me ~ leave me ~
just sae that you NEED me ~
so i cry, i pray and i beg...
love me ~ love me ~
sae that you love me ~
leave me ~ leave me ~
just sae that you NEED me ~
i can't care bout anytyng but you.ouh, how i wish the night is not over yet.
[ 10march'09 ]
and my back hurts. DAMNZ. we went sim lim to buy the protection screen and lappy skin. but unfortunately the lappy skin is not available and needs to re-size. was told itz readied on fridae. headed to old wdlnd mkt to grab the LEVI's watch that we both wanted but DAMNZ, the shop CLOSED! we are so freakingly pissed off and had dinner @CP banquet. talked + crapped + laugh + mad + crazy + tired. we took bus and he send me home. i didn't sleep the night before and ouh, what a day luh sia. :] .
[ 11march'09 ]
i supposed to be on morning shift todae. but my back n my throat's killing me. i just couldn't get my eyes open and i can't get up. i took MC and seek consultation from the doctor in the afternoon. he said i've 2 tonsils and needs to be removed through laser OPS. heee. i myss getting admits in the hospital. :X . ouhkae FREAK! it's just a place where it makes me thynk. thynk about life and death. and soon after been discharged, it make me feel some kind of... alive again.... you know. hmmmmm. ouhkae it was like 8yrs ago sia when i had my gynaecology OPS and the doc found out either both my kidney is at one side or i was born with one kidney. OMG! im an extraordinary. kae lame. -________- . im scared. :( . met hym tonight. & i waited again. haiz.
[ 12march'09 ]
our 6th monthsary and THANK god he didn't forget. :] .
& my wish is ... unable to reveal.
[ 13march'09 ]
very very very very... i mean VERY suay dae.
I HATE SAME SHIFT WITH THAT BAI YEE SINGH, HE'S THE TL AND IM DOING STM. FUCKER!
[ 14march'09 ]
it supposed to be yesterdae the skin can be collected but he said it was wrongly printed and so i accompanied hym todae for that newly-retro-lappy-skin. :] . we love it. i duno bout hym but i lyk it, i dun care! :] . we walked around the mall and bugis street. one thing i hate the most is that...window shopping with hym.
1. need to stick with hym.
2. pay extra attention to hys werds.
3. givyn various comments. coz i've been spotted and replied sarcasticly by hym. "ouhkae uh, not bad", "hmmm." "ahuh, nicex.", "hmmm". "mcm malas jer nk layan". HE IS SOOO SARCASTIC LOR! I HATE IT SIAK! PERANGAI MCM POMPAN SAK. im sooo pissed off. i feel sad and i just kept quiet. i almost wanted to cry. i never shop with guys before and i hate shopping with guys. THEY ARE SO MEAN! :( .
im hys GF and he shouldn't be so sarcastic with me LOR! dah tak suke and da mendak with me, FINE, just say so luh. in the end, "i've got nothing to say, i don't want to argue." :( . ckp salah, tk ckp pon salah. HE'S SUCHA PARANOID! dah luh datang lambat, i tak ckp apape pon. when comes to my part, he's so MEAN. :( .
: sumtymes i just don't know who am i to hym :
last nyte, i questioned hym bout what i saw in his lappy that makes me left heartbroken n confused. his answer is logically accepted but it left me with full of curiosity. haiz. i don't know whether he just testing my damn freaking patience, he wants to make me jealous or he wants to know/see what's my reaction. lelaki, smuernyer samer... same DICK, thynk alike. tknk terlalu mengharapkan sangat pon. & my reaction was damn COOLX yet heartbroken. :X . i breakdown and cried after i replied hym with no-showing-that-im-pissed-off-or-sad msgs. :( . & my eyes swollen again. haiz. lamer-lamer mater aku leh jady sepet. -_____- .
im on night shift and after we had dinner @braddle's Mac, he send me to werk. :]
sumtymes i cried too hard
and hurt myself.
coz it's very hard for me to accept it
and i just can't take it.
am i that pathetic?i hate myself. :( .
...deep inside, itz bleedin...
4:45 AM
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